In A Shadow of Sadness....

I am so sad today. It's probably the fact that I am moving again...and reminded that there is no real home here. I am limited in what I can say for various reasons. There are some situations that have made my heart so sad. As I kept trying to "rise above it"..God allowed a dear friend to call... I shared a bit with her.....and after hanging up...I realized that what I long for is heaven.
I can't wait till I will be in a place where the focus is totally and completely...Christ. There will be unbroken fellowship...no goodbyes...no separation....there will be such sweet community. A place where christians won't be flakey....hold grudges...or be too busy......I won't be misunderstood...or put in a category based on single or married...I will have more brothers and sisters than I can count...love will be perfected and sin will not be present. I am a bit disheartened tonight. Everything around me is just not how it is supposed to be. I long for a home..not an earthly dwelling...this longing is for something so much deeper... I know it's for the community that will only exist in heaven. This past Sat. really created a stirring in my heart...it was this taste of something that I want more of....my sadness is over the fact that it just can't exist here...at best we get a glimpse or a taste. I can only imagine how Paul felt....but must do what he did....until God calls me home......so I press on...take it a day at a time...even when I don't "feel" like it.