The Greatest Good

 "The greatest good of the gospel is that I get God"

 John Piper

The quote was read in class Thursday morning. 

It has been sitting on my heart.....  

Sitting and lingering. 

Rubbing and revealing.

The greatest good.... is that I get God.

It sounds so grand and beautiful.

It sounds so right.... and yet my heart is so wrong. 

....because I know that He is not my greatest treasure...my greatest good...today. 

This is not even my first time to hear this....but it feels like it. I know the places of my heart that have not heard His grace. The places of my heart that are still out for myself. 

More times than not, I come to God for what He will give me, what He will do for me. Let's just be real here and just get it all out in the open. 

I want Him to do.. what I want Him to do...when I want Him to do it.

There are many things that I have considered to be my greatest good, many of those things He has not given to me: A date. A boyfriend. A husband. A child. A family. Just a few of the not so quiet longings of my heart.   

We all have our list. 

We watch as others receive them with jealousy and envy. Ungrateful for what He has given out of His abundance. So fixated on the thing He could've given but didn't. 

All the while... missing it....

The greatest good is to get God.

So I pray....because I know that I am incapable of changing anything.  I can only plead with the One who raises things from the dead. Help my unbelief and teach me what this means Lord. What does it look like for You to be the greatest good in my life. To be so over joyed to have You and not another thing that you would give to me.

Lord, take this stubborn heart and make it beat for you. 

Make this selfish heart long for you more than the watchmen long for the morning. 

More than the good gifts you give because of your steadfast love oh God. 

Awaken my heart to see your goodness  Lord, to know that You are better than life.